Friday, November 6, 2009
the God Experiment: day 6 Sat
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
the God Experiment: day 5 Thursday
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
the God Experiment: day 4 Wednesday
the God Experiment: day 3 Tuesday(part2)
Monday, November 2, 2009
the God Experiment: day 3 Tuesday
Sunday, November 1, 2009
the God Experiment: day 2 Monday
the God Experiment: day 1 Sunday
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Just how Big is Richard's God?
I"m asking myself.. how on earth can i feel so calm thinking about sleeping and not worrying about my design..
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Monday, October 26, 2009
self doubt
Saturday, October 24, 2009
On a lighter note. Architecture students, this is just for you! :) i loved it! hope u'll love it as much as i did.
THe title of this letter is "DEAR ARCHITECTS, I"M SICK OF YOUR SHIT"
written by Annie Choi was something i came across in a link in Yut's blog. i totally enjoyed it
thanks Yut, thanks Edwin! LOL
Enjoy.
Once, a long time ago in the days of yore, I had a friend who was studying architecture to become, presumably, an architect.
This friend introduced me to other friends, who were also studying architecture. Then these friends had other friends who were architects – real architects doing real architecture like designing luxury condos that look a lot like glass dildos. And these real architects knew other real architects and now the only people I know are architects. And they all design glass dildos that I will never work or live in and serve only to obstruct my view of New Jersey.Do not get me wrong, architects. I like you as a person. I think you are nice, smell good most of the time, and I like your glasses. You have crazy hair, and if you are lucky, most of it is on your head. But I do not care about architecture. It is true. This is what I do care about:
* burritos
* hedgehogs
* coffeeAs you can see, architecture is not on the list. I believe that architecture falls somewhere between toenail fungus and invasive colonoscopy in the list of things that interest me.
Perhaps if you didn’t talk about it so much, I would be more interested. When you point to a glass cylinder and say proudly, hey my office designed that, I giggle and say it looks like a bong. You turn your head in disgust and shame. You think, obviously she does not understand. What does she know? She is just a writer. She is no architect. She respects vowels, not glass cocks. And then you say now I am designing a lifestyle center, and I ask what is that, and you say it is a place that offers goods and services and retail opportunities and I say you mean like a mall and you say no. It is a lifestyle center. I say it sounds like a mall. I am from the Valley, bitch. I know malls.
Architects, I will not lie, you confuse me. You work sixty, eighty hours a week and yet you are always poor. Why aren’t you buying me a drink? Where is your bounty of riches? Maybe you spent it on merlot. Maybe you spent it on hookers and blow. I cannot be sure. It is a mystery. I will leave that to the scientists to figure out.
Architects love to discuss how much sleep they have gotten. One will say how he was at the studio until five in the morning, only to return again two hours later. Then another will say, oh that is nothing. I haven’t slept in a week. And then another will say, guess what, I have never slept ever. My dear architects, the measure of how hard you’ve worked and how much you’ve accomplished is not related to the number of hours you have not slept. Have you heard of Rem Koolhaas? He is a famous architect. I know this because you tell me he is a famous architect. I hear that Rem Koolhaas is always sleeping. He is, I presume, sleeping right now. And I hear he gets shit done. And I also hear that in a stunning move, he is making a building that looks not like a glass cock, but like a concrete vagina. When you sleep more, you get vagina. You can all take a lesson from Rem Koolhaas.
Life is hard for me, please understand. Architects are an important part of my existence. They call me at eleven at night and say they just got off work, am I hungry? Listen, it is practically midnight. I ate hours ago. So long ago that, in fact, I am hungry again. So yes, I will go. Then I will go and there will be other architects talking about AutoCAD shortcuts and something about electric panels and can you believe that is all I did today, what a drag. I look around the table at the poor, tired, and hungry, and think to myself, I have but only one bullet left in the gun. Who will I choose?
I have a friend who is a doctor. He gives me drugs. I enjoy them. I have a friend who is a lawyer. He helped me sue my landlord. My architect friends have given me nothing. No drugs, no medical advice, and they don’t know how to spell subpoena. One architect friend figured out that my apartment was one hundred and eighty seven square feet. That was nice. Thanks for that.
I suppose one could ask what someone like me brings to architects like yourselves. I bring cheer. I yell at architects when they start talking about architecture. I force them to discuss far more interesting topics, like turkey eggs. Why do we eat chicken eggs, but not turkey eggs? They are bigger. And people really like turkey. See? I am not afraid to ask the tough questions.
So, dear architects, I will stick around, for only a little while. I hope that one day some of you will become doctors and lawyers or will figure out my taxes. And we will laugh at the days when you spent the entire evening talking about some European you’ve never met who designed a building you will never see because you are too busy working on something that will never get built. But even if that day doesn’t arrive, give me a call anyway, I am free.
Yours truly,
Annie Choi
The truth when the average guy watches porn.
These are some facts i found about the porn industry from Shellylubben.com
66% of porn stars have Herpes, a non-curable disease.
Chlamydia and Gonorrhea among performers is 10x greater than that of LA County 20-24 year olds.
70% of sexually transmitted infections in the porn industry occur in females.
75%-90% of porn performers are prostituted women.
20 suicides and 28 drug related deaths among performers that we know of since 2000.
Over 100 straight and gay performers died from AIDS.
The largest group viewing online pornography is ages 12 to 17.
More than 11 million teens regularly view porn online.
Worldwide pornography revenue in 2006 was $97.06 billion. Of that, approximately $13 billion was in the United States.
There are 4.2 million pornographic websites, 420 million pornographic web pages, and 68 million daily search engine requests.
shelly lubben and the reason why she fights against porn
Friday, October 23, 2009
Confession.
or if this is even necessary.
Thing is. i watched porn yesterday night(Fri). and the night before i had my discipleship group(Tues).
It started with a mild prompt when i was using my com beside my bed and the lights were all off.. my initial response to that was.. no. i shouldn't. i'd be thinking of verses. and some christian songs started filtering into my head.. this went on for the next 20 mins. this suggestion.. kept recurring .. 'watch it. its ok. just a little porn and a little wank won't do nobody harm. heck! every guy does this! You are not alone! Even christians watch porn!' or something like that. and then at the back ground of my head... 'christian songs would be playing..' i'd be thinking of how Daniel ran away when Potiphar's wife tried to seduce him .. and how i shld b doing the same.. if u feel the temptation .. just don't use the computer. Simple enough right?
"WRONG!"
this mental conversation.. kept going on and on.
till i thought. heck.. f*** this. then i took out my old laptop.. which was already virus infected.i didn't want to use my new laptop to watch porn cuz i was afraid that there would be virus if i did so.. so i opened my old laptop.. put in the charger. and lo and behold. it started up!(FYI the reason why i bought a new laptop was because it couldn't start up.. and was so prone to overheating that the laptop would kind of self destruct) . so yes.. looks like the fact that my laptop could even start up was a sign from God that i could watch porn! 'yay' i thought to myself
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i opened the internet explorer.. and lo and behold.. i couldn't access the internet. i was somewhat disappointed.. and relieved at the same time. THen i thought a brilliant thought ' u know... what if i tried mozilla? maybe i could access the internet.. ' and lo and behold.. i still couldn't access the internet.. my eyes flickered to the bottom right of the screen.. ' yup internet connection working fine!' nothing wrong with the wireless card..
for the next 10 mins.. i was half thinking. .maybe this is really God telling me to give up and just go and sleep. and half thinking.. i just want to watch a little porn.. its been.. about 2 months since the last time i watched.. surely i deserved a little 'fun'?and i continued fumbling and trying to get a connection.. till.. i finally got online!. YIPPEE!! my old laptop can connect to the internet!.
went on google.. keyed in the name of my favorite porn site . 'enter'
keyed in my password.
and yes. i'm back on familiar ground.
but again.. i wanted to watch. but the movie just wouldn't stream. for some reason.. the screen hanged each time i clicked on the link.. this went on for the next 10 mins. i eventually opened up the mozilla web browser and . lo and behold.. porn.
as i watched.. i started to wank. but meanwhile.. at the back of my head.. i still heard a thought saying.. its not too late.. u can still get away. turn off the com. but i was thinking.. i'm enjoying myself too much.. screw that.
watched and wanked till i ejaculated.
and suddenly.. i was rational. cuz i had achieved my 4 mins of fun.
All too suddenly.. i realized that i had just rebelled at God straight into His face and going my way.Was i a happier man? did squirting semen into my pants feel great?
i was afraid that i'd fall out of intimacy with God.and worse still.. i was leading a discipleship group about 15 hours later. what kind of Christian leader am i?
i sat up from bed.. got into the toilet.. wiped away the semen. went back to bed.
i couldn't sleep. guilt overcame me.
yet i wasn't unfamiliar with this feeling.. for the past 15 years of my life.. i was watching porn.. for the past 6 years. when i really got to know Jesus, i felt this guilt almost everytime i watched porn. the times when i didn't feel guilty were when i was doing it so often i couldn't care less what God thought.
i knew the things in the bible that talked about God's grace. and that if we confess.. he will forgive our sins. i knew in the bible it said.. the things i want to do, i do not do.. the things i hate, i do.
I clung on to guilt. rather than clung on to His grace, half afraid of believing that God would still forgive me even though this is a chronic sin which i'm used to be ashamed of.. and now am angry with.
I thought i'd like to write about the insiduous nature of porn. For me.. porn is a struggle.. when the temptation comes.. i could be not thinking about watching porn for like weeks.. even up to months. and all of the sudden. temptation strikes. and i realize how weak i am to fight it. i empathise when people say they can't help it when they always feel like eating.. sometimes.. its really not their fault. its just that sin really has a hold on them.
i have Victor who is my accountability buddy when it comes to porn.. but still.. somtimes, i just don't want to find help. even though i know its the very thing i need.
i thought once. twice.. even thrice before even beginning this post.. but the more i wrote.. the more i thought to myself.. enough is enough.. this stupid crap has really been a thorn by my side for long enough... how can i be a Christian if i continue such a lifestyle. i am more afraid that God would give me over to lust and sexual perversion than anything..
my inhibitions before i wrote this post was that.. i was afraid that when people read this post.. they'd be disgusted with me and laugh at me.. 'so mr religious boy locks himself in his house and watches porn at night in the dark.'
but u know what.. that is true. i mean not the religious part.. please don't ever label me as religious.. i'll b offended cuz religious people are so concerned about .. ok.. i have to wake up at 6am to pray.. spend 4 hours with God every single day.. i have to like.. do loads of church work.. and i have to be a super nice guy and smile every single day.. cuz if i don't i wouldn't be mr nice christian.
please everyone.. that is really nothing more than cow dung. i don't wake up at 6 am to pray.. i don't do lots of church work.. its a struggle to me. sometimes .. when i have to balance school, work, play and time for God and my family.. i am equally prone to being worried and sad.. and pissed off when tutors are unreasonable or what.. i don't even think it is even necessary at all to pretend that you are happy when you aren't. but of course.. i believe that there is always a right way to let out ure emotions.
i repeat again.. Christianity is not a religion but a relationship with God.
Sin no longer has power over you when you confess your sins to God. because Jesus died for your sins past present and future. But it takes faith to believe that Jesus will save you and really he does not condemn u any longer because u have confessed and believed that he really has the power to forgive all sins.
Other religions tell you that you have to work your way into heaven.
that you have to do good deeds to go to heaven.
Chritianity is on a different league because.. no matter how many good deeds you do, you will not go into heaven if you do not believe in Jesus. because a holy God simply cannot allow unholy people to enter His kingdom. Only through Jesus are we made holy.
The point in my confession is that it dosn't matter how big our sins are. its how big Jesus's grace is.i probably will write another post about how porn really isn't as harmless as it is.. b4 that i'll need to do a little research.
i apologize for some graphic description.. but the thing is.. if we try to briefly summarize the act of watching porn as just watching porn and not talking about how u masturbate to get the 'relief' when you ejaculate.... then anyone could just say.. watching porn is just like watching any other movie.. whats wrong ????
EVERYTHing.
it is direct rebellion against what God has stated in his word.
Its not that i'm right and you're wrong. it is that God is right and we are sinners and He has a way out for us. Do we take it?
that is the bigger question.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
my truth, your truth, whose truth
But look at the implication of such a statement. Only beneficial Truth is permissible. What this really means it that it is perfectly alright to lie. this is obviously wrong to begin with.
Monday, October 19, 2009
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Saturday, October 17, 2009
the wedding post
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Just a regret i didn't buy bring back this pig mask to singapore when the h1n1 was rampant all over town
really old pics taken in korea when i was on internship at space group.. this really brings back lovely memories. :')
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
nothing else matters
As i kind of finished my urban presentation yesterday, which marks a short break in this series of crazy schedules and lists of things to do.. i marvel at the grace that God has been so faithful. and it really is becoming an adventure. each day has its ups and downs.. generallylearning to trust in God is something i'm rather new at..
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Friday, October 9, 2009
slogslogslog.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Monday, October 5, 2009
PROCRASTINATION IS LIKE MASTURBATION; ITS ALL GOOD TILL YOU REALIZE YOU'RE JUST FUCKING YOURSELF
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
PICASA 3.5 is simply AMAZING!!!
Rejoice!
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Title: What should I do to marry a rich guy?
I'm going to be honest of what I'm going to say here. I'm 25 this year. I'm very pretty, have style and good taste. I wish to marry a guy with $500k annual salary or above. You might say that I'm greedy, but an annual salary of $1M is considered only as middle class in New York. My requirement is not high. Is there anyone in this forum who has an income of $500k annual salary? Are you all married? I wanted to ask: what should I do to marry rich persons like you? Among those I've dated, the richest is $250k annual income, and it seems that this is my upper limit. If someone is going to move into high cost residential area on the west of New York City Garden, $250k annual income is not enough.
I'm here humbly to ask a few questions:
1) Where do most rich bachelors hang out? (Please list down the names and addresses of bars, restaurant, gym)
2) Which age group should I target?
3) Why most wives of the riches is only average-looking? I've met a few girls who doesn't have looks and are not interesting, but they are able to marry rich guys
4) How do you decide who can be your wife, and who can only be your girlfriend? (my target now is to get married)
Ms. Pretty
Reply:
Dear Ms. Pretty,
I have read your post with great interest. Guess there are lots of girls out there who have similar questions like yours. Please allow me to analyse your situation as a professional investor. My annual income is more than $500k, which meets your requirement, so I hope everyone believes that I'm not wasting time here. From the standpoint of a business person, it is a bad decision to marry you. The answer is very simple, so let me explain. Put the details aside, what you're trying to do is an exchange of "beauty" and "money": Person A provides beauty, and Person B pays for it, fair and square. However, there's a deadly problem here, your beauty will fade, but my money will not be gone without any good reason. The fact is, my income might increase from year to year, but you can't be prettier year after year. Hence from the viewpoint of economics, I am an appreciation asset, and you are a depreciation asset. It's not just normal depreciation, but exponential depreciation. If that is your only asset, your value will be much worried 10 years later.
By the terms we use in Wall Street, every trading has a position, dating with you is also a "trading position". If the trade value dropped we will sell it and it is not a good idea to keep it for long term - same goes with the marriage that you wanted. It might be cruel to say this, but in order to make a wiser decision any assets with great depreciation value will be sold or "leased". Anyone with over $500k annual income is not a fool; we would only date you, but will not marry you. I would advice that you forget looking for any clues to marry a rich guy. And by the way, you could make yourself to become a rich person with $500k annual income. This has better chance than finding a rich fool.
Hope this reply helps. If you are interested in "leasing" services, do contact me...
signed,
J.P. Morgan
isa 40:18
Everything I tried (It took me nowhere)
I was so tired of just living my life(Waiting for a sign)
You came to my side(Gave me direction)
Strong on the inside(I shine for You Lord)
Now it's my time
To be all You want for me
Is live my life for You
I know it's true
I'll never let You go
All I do
I'd anything for You
Everything is in Your Hands
So I get up
Get up and praise You
And I know where I'm going
I know where I'm going
Setting the week in perspective
Leonidas and his 300 Spartans
Absolute loyalty to their cause and king.. unwavering.. unyeilding.. honorable..skillful.. diligent.. strong.. bold.. courageous.. polite.. serving and fighting as a unit.. every soldier making the army invincible.. using their shields.. and spear with.. excellent defence and attack.. fearless... faithful..
WHO WOULDN"T WANT TO BE A SPARTAN??!?!?!? WHERE ARE GOD"S SPARTAN SOLDIERS???
Saturday, September 12, 2009
what if... the number of msges u received from your gf/bf was an idicator of how often he/she thought about u?
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Monday, September 7, 2009
Presenting our Bicycle track proposal at NUS for NUS
We are looking at increasing the efficiency of the current systems that are used in NUS. Esp aircon systems.
Looking to alternative means of generating electricity. Ever heard of Algae fuel? well i've never heard of it till i was in this studio.
Anyways.. i'm still wondering where is architecture involved in this project. still trying to find an idea. A floating glass disco box? :)
The distinguished guests who attended our seminar, Toh Week Kiang, Andrew Vaas, Lee Boon Xiong and Lee Eng Lock
The adventures of the balloon heads
Thats my personal cap collection :)
BIRDY@!!!
Really wana thank GOD for the awesome price which i bought the lens.. i got it for 880 bucks brand new.. from a 2nd hand shop at Peninsula Plaza. ") the normal price for this lens is 1060-1200. So i only have God to thank. For a poor student like me.. 880 means a 200 bucks savings. :) WHOOPIE :) I've got this urge to get another lens :) A telephoto lens...
Not having an opinion
And one of the reasons i've allowed myself so many things on my plate is because i know that it is he who is in me that is stronger to do all these.. Jesus.. thank you :)














